GRRR- So I'm pretty mad at the world right now. I like to think that I give a lot: I always try to do my best, I never give up and I would never turn my back on a friend. But this week, I was willing to stop doing all of those things. I think of it as a proverbial nap- I didn't want to do my best, I wanted to give up for a little while and not worry about it, and I wanted some time away from some of my friends. Now the reason for this is personal, and I have no intention of advertising it to the world, but suffice it to say that it was a necessary evil in order to maintain my sanity. Now, maintaining my sanity is not necessarily of primary importance to me most of the time- but for some reason I believed it to be a priority for the last two weeks. At the end of the day, I just needed some space to deal with my own issues for a change.

Now, the reason I'm upset is because of my disillusionment with my friends. How quickly they forget all the times that I have gone above and beyond my necessary duties. The times where I have almost killed myself for various causes, organizations, issues, relationships etc. The fact that I would never assume the worst of my friends. This people forget; once you appear to be acting a little unusual, once you seem more apathetic than involved, once you simply aren't around as much any more you must be a BAD PERSON, a danger to yourself, irresponsible, unreliable, and so on. All I wanted was some time to myself, but I guess that's unreasonable.
Oh well! It's the price you pay for infamy I suppose.


Anyway, here's lyrics that reflect my reaction. Thought they were pretty appropriate.

DEVOTCHKAS LYRICS
"Sorry"[Originally by 4 Skins]
I won't say sorry for what I've done
I won't say sorry for having fun
I won't take the blame
And I ain't gonna be ashamed
I won't say sorry for what I've done
I won't say sorry for having fun

Shout it out
Shout it out
I Don't give a damn 'cause I'm proud of what I am
I Don't give a damn 'cause I'm proud of what I am

I won't say sorry to you
If you think I will,
You know what you can do and
I won't apologize
And I won't put up with any of your lies
I won't say sorry to you
You can stuff that where you want to

Shout it out
Shout it out
I Don't give a damn 'cause I'm proud of what I am
I Don't give a damn 'cause I'm proud of what I am

I won't say sorry for the way I act
I won't say sorry for it and that is a fact
I won't say sorry at all
I won't say sorry 'cause it makes me feel small
I won't say sorry for the way I act
I won't say sorry for it and that's a fact

Shout it out
Shout it out
I Don't give a damn 'cause I'm proud of what I am
I Don't give a damn 'cause I'm proud of what I am