Zita's Little World

Just a random series of thoughts that run through my head.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Anniversaries and Such

Well, it's hard to believe but it's been almost a year since last Hallowe'en. That means it's been almost a year since Delta Upsilon's annual Wake. And almost a year since Jason.

It would be pretty silly to pretend that this is your average one year anniversary. We certainly aren't your average couple- it took us a very long time to get where we are today. But it all really started at wake, so I guess there isn't a better day to celebrate.

For some reason largely unknown to me, this particular occasion has me acting all bubbly and sappy. This is funny to me since it certainly isn't my first one year anniversary. Hell, I've had three and four year anniversaries...so what makes this one so special?

I think it comes down to many different things. Jay and I are in a really good place- taking things slow was the best idea ever! We've overcome many of the major obstacles and now we can just focus on being ridiculously happy. And we are. Ridiculously.

But I think there may be more to it than that. Part of it must be just how enthralled I am by my proverbial boyfriend. Everyday I become more and more astonished and every day I fall harder and harder in love. Is that possible? I wouldn't have thought so 365 days ago...but I definately do now. A big part of it is that I'm still surprised and astounded that things have turned out so well...I spent a long time preparing myself for the worst in this relationship. It's nice to be wrong!

I have been in love before, but I must admit this is a different kind of love. It's giddy and school-girlish and chick-flick romantic. It's everything I use to hate about relationships- cutesy holding-hands and sharing food and kissing in public. It's my spending hours building a 'soundtrack' of our relationship because we're both such music nuts. It's insane and infatuated and wonderful! But most importantly , it's the most sincere thing I have felt in months.

This year probably could have been the worst year of my life. Just being as sick as i have been was bad enough, let alone some of the other unluckiness I've faced. Jason made it better. He makes everything better. Not perfect, just better.

Anyway, that's today's rant from a very very lucky girl.

livin' lovin',
Zita