Theme Song

So if super heroes have theme songs, I have always believed that people should too. For many many years I had one solid theme song that never changed (Billy Joel's She's Always A Woman To Me). However, I think it might be time for variety- and searching for new theme songs allows me to broaden my musical tastes... But, like most other things in life, I tend to get in zones with my music (and no offense to Billy (my love, my only, my other self) ) but I'm all about Ani Difranco right now...so, here's the lyrics to the new song

NOT A PRETTY GIRL- Ani Difranco
I am not a pretty girl
that is not what I do
I ain't no damsel in distress
and I don't need to be rescued
so put me down punk
maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere`

I am not an angry girl
but it seems like I've got everyone fooled
every time I say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
and imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing full well they'd prefer you
were dirty and smiling

and I am sorry
I am not a maiden fair
and I am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

and generally my generation
wouldn't be caught dead working for the man
and generally I agree with them
trouble is you gotta have youself an alternate plan
and I have earned my disillusionment
I have been working all of my life
and I am a patriotI have been fighting the good fight
and what if there are no damsels in distress
what if I knew that and I called your bluff?
don't you think every kitten figures out how to get down
whether or not you ever show up

I am not a pretty girl
I don't want to be a pretty girl
no I want to be more than a pretty girl

Sweet Sweet Times

Alright,
So like usual my life has been a bit of a rollercoaster. However, I am going to make a concerted effort to post more on my blog over the next year so as to be able to record all my favorite memories since my Alzheimer's is starting to get to me... I also got a digital camera for christmas and this will give me a chance to post some pics too.

So Christmas was the best break ever. I spent it alone with my mom in the Great White North and it was a week of pure bonding and bliss (with the occasional case of wine). In fact, I even extended my stay, which has never happened for me before since usually I need to escape from my mom very early in the visit. This is not because we don't get along, but for some reason we just aren't able to communicate as well as we'd like...it usually ends up with me telling her that she knows nothing about me and her replying that "that's no one's fault but your own!"....Good times. However, this break, nothing like that! It was awesome. We laughed, we played scrabble, we went boxing day shopping at 6 am (yea Future Shop), I gave her the scrapbook that I made (I'm SO good) and we cried and reminisced...it was amazing. I have never felt so comfortable with her in my life. I think this is the start of a beautiful friendship.

New Year's was a bit of a fiasco...a few interested situations erupted that, as much as I love the international web community, I feel compelled to skip over in this post. But let's just say, all the drama that I had managed to avoid in my visit to Grande Prairie came back to haunt me on the 31st. But that's alright because the last few days have more than made up for it.

On the first, I went blind. I wound up scratching my eye in four places and it got really sore and swollen so I couldn't see for two days. That sucked. But did I manage to make it to Chris Johnstone's going away party??? I SURE DID! Cause I'm a superstar...or I'm just that much of a bar-addict...don't know for sure. I'm pretty sad that Chris left since he's one of my best friends but I'm sure that he'll do well out in Saskatchewan. It's weird to think of Chris doing the non-Frat thing but maybe it will all be for the best. I look forward to seeing him again, that's for sure.

The fourth was the first Karaoke of the New Year....for those who know me, I'm also a bit of a Karaoke addict (I really gotta work on this addiction issue I have...I seem to have a lot of vices...oh well!) It was good times, and after this blog I will post a few pictures of the evening. I love Scholar's and karaoke and it was great to see all my friends for the first time since the break began.

Last night was one of the Pi Phis birthday parties- we went bowling. Most of the girls went to the strippers afterwards but Victoria and I decided to go to Scholars' (again!) for a night cap and some girl time. Little did we know that we would run into some of our friends and wind up having the best time ever, without a microphone of course. After several hours of laughing it up at the bar (again, pictures will follow), we went back to their frat house (Zeta Psi) to play Simpson's Jeopardy- which never really happened cause our attention span was lacking. Instead, we tried to hold a seance and channel the spirit of Jimi Hendrix and Marilyn Monroe...but those bastards were too good for us and ignored us all night. The seance turned into the funniest game of truth or dare ever! Good times. By 4:30 am we were all pretty exhausted...anyway, that's enough about that story...I didn't get much sleep.

Tonight, more Karaoke at Avenue- yee haw! I love my routine. It rocks.
I'll post pics, once I figure out how to do it.

Livin', Lovin',
Zita

Song of the Week

So I'm a hardcore believer that, when your own words fail you, the odds are someone else has already said exactly what you're thinking in more effective terms. Maybe that's why I am such a huge fan of music. There's always a song that seems like it was written for you, for the precise moment that you are living. I have two that fit that description for right now, for different reasons. So here are the lyrics to my particular mindframe.

Ani Difranco- Untouchable Face

think i'm going for a walk now
i feel a little unsteady
i don't want nobody to follow me
'cept maybe you
i could make you happy you know
if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things
and i do
tell you the truth i prefer
the worst of you
too bad you had to have a better half
she's not really my type
but i think you two are forever
and i hate to say it but
you're perfect together
so fuck you
and your untouchable face
and fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch
and who am i
i bet you can't even tell me that much
two-thirty in the morning
and my gas tank will be empty soon
neon sign on the horizon
rubbing elbows with the moon
a safe haven of sleepless
where the deep fryer's always on
radio is counting down
the top 20 country songs
and out on the porch the fly strip is
waving like a flag in the wind
y'know, i don't look forward
to seeing you again soon
you'll look like a photograph of yourself
taken from far far away
and i won't know what to do
and i won't know what to say
except fuck you...
i see you and i'm so perplexed
what was i thinking
what will i think of next
where can i hide
in the back room there's a lamp
that hangs over the pool table
and when the fan is on it swings
gently side to side
there's a changing constellation
of balls as we are playing
i see orion and say nothing
the only thing i can think of saying
is fuck you...

Def Leppard- When Love and Hate Collide

You could have a change of heart,
if you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone girl,
for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand baby, united we fall
Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this flame
You could have a change of heart,
if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time
Without you
One night alone
Is like a year
without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide
I don't wanna fight no more,
I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby,
like an act of war
I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes
There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time
Without you...
You could have a change of heart,
if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby...Crazy...Crazy
Without you...