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Okay, this is a forward survey thing that I actually found really interesting and fun to do- totally kick ass way to beat the boredom blues. You are supposed to answer every question with a set of song lyrics from your favorite artists and bands. Totally right up my alley. Here are my answers, which took me forever by the way.



WHO ARE YOU? An "average every day sane psycho suppergoddess" (Liz Phair, Extraordinairy)

HOW DO YOU FEEL? "i am not worried, I am not overly concerned by the status of my emotions" (Counting Crows, Anna Begins)

WHAT ARE YOU DOING? "Just wishing and hoping and thinking and praying and planning and dreaming " (Dusty Springfield, Wishing and Hoping")

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?

"I want to live
To see the earth turn one more time
I wanna live
To feel a hand that isn't mine
I'm only standing on the shore
I had some fun but I want more
I'll try not to act like I'm so far away
I try to be right in whatever I say
Deeper feelings recur again & again & again & again
A complex spiral leads me to spin..."

(Talking Heads, I Want To Live)


SAY SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR CLOSEST FRIEND:

"You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here "

(Alanis Morrisette, Everything)

WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?

"The lamp is burning low upon my table top the snow is softly falling
The air is still within the silence of my room I hear your voice softly calling
If I could only have you near to breathe a sigh or two
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love on this winter night with you"

(Gordon Lightfoot, Song For A Winter's Night)

WHAT DO YOU LOVE?

"Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy.
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry.
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely.
Sunshine almost always makes me high."

(John Denver, Sunshine On My Shoulders)

WHAT DO YOU HATE?

"Vicious rumours, paranoic fears
Sonic boomers ringing in your ears
All of this is getting normal now
You'll never go back to your farming plough
Vicious rumours"

(Alice Cooper, Vicious Rumours)


WHAT DO YOU SAY TO SOMEONE YOU LOVE?

"And I've got no illusions about you
Guess what, I never did
When I say, when I say "I'll take it"
I mean, I mean 'as is'"

(Ani Difranco, As Is)

WHAT DO YOU SAY TO SOMEONE YOU HATE?

"Made up my mind to break you this time,
Won't be so fine, it's my turn to cry.
Do what you want, I won't take the brunt.
It's fadin' away, can't feel you anymore.
Don't care what you say 'cause I'm goin' away to stay,
Gonna make you pay for that great big hole in my heart. "

(Led Zeppelin, Your Time Is Gonna Come)
*AND*

"You label me, I'll label you. So I dub thee unforgiven"

(Metallica, Unforgiven)

WHAT EXACTLY IS LIFE?

"All my life's a circle;
Sunrise and sundown;
Moon rolls thru the nighttime;
Till the daybreak comes around.

All my life's a circle;
But I can't tell you why;
Season's spinning round again;
The years keep rollin' by."

(Harry Chapin, Circle)

WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY?

"She lived, she loved, she laughed, she cried,
And it was all for me."

(Elvis Presley, I Was The One)


WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO?

"Ramble on,
And now’s the time, the time is now
To sing my song.
I’m goin’ ’round the world"

(Led Zeppelin, Ramble On)


TELL US A SECRET ABOUT YOU:

"If I should buy jellybeans
Have to eat them all in just one sitting
Everything it seems I like’s a little bit sweeter
A little bit fatter, a little bit harmful for me"

(Rufus Wainwright, Cigarettes and Cholocalate Milk)

WHAT ARE YOU?

"i am not a pretty girl
that is not what i do
i ain't no damsel in distress
and i don't need to be rescued
so put me down punk
maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

i am not an angry girl
but it seems like i've got everyone fooled
every time i say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
and imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing full well they'd prefer you
were dirty and smiling

and i am sorry
i am not a maiden fair
and i am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere"

(Ani Difranco, Not A Pretty Girl)

WHAT ARE YOUR FRIENDS TO YOU?

"What is done has been done for the best
Though the mist in my eyes might suggest
Just a little confusion about what I'll lose
But if I started over I know I would choose
The same joy the same sadness each step of the way
That fought me and taught me that friends never say
Never say goodbye"

(Elton John, Friends Never Say Goodbye)


WHAT IS VALUABLE TO YOU?

"Late at night
When it's dark and cold
I reach out
For someone to hold
When I'm blue
When I'm lonely
She comes through
She's the only one who can
My baby grand
Is all I need"

(Billy Joel, Baby Grand)


EXPLAIN YOURSELF(PERSONALITY):

"She's sun and rain
She's fire and ice
A little crazy, but it's nice
And when she gets mad
You best leave her alone.
Cause she'll rage just like a river
Then she'll beg you to forgive her
And she's every woman
That I've ever known"

(Garth Brooks, She's Every Woman)

WHAT WAS YOUR WORST HEARTBREAK?

"I crawl out of sight for you, dear
I melt with the night, I disappear
I won't have more fun with you
never get drunk with you
I'll let you go for good
I've pulled it apart for you dear
I wait for my heart to shift gear
I'll let you down for good
I'll never go back to you
never shoot smack with you
I'll let you go for good "

(Veruca Salt, Break Up Song)

WHAT WAS YOUR GREATEST LOVE?

"Trumpets and violins
I can hear in the distance
I think they're callin' our names
Mabye you can't hear them now but you will
If you just take hold of my hand
Oh, but are you experienced?
Have you ever been experienced?
Not necessarily stoned, but beautiful"

(Jimi Hendrix, Are You Experienced?)

WHAT CAN YOU DO?

"The more we learn, the less we believe to be true.
The more we prove, the more remains to be proved.
We've gotta be strong men and follow a path again.
We've got to have faith in something bigger,
Faith in something bigger,
Faith in something big inside ourself, inside ourself."

(The Who, Faith In Something Bigger)

WHAT CAN'T YOU DO?

"its getting late
I just cant close my eyes
well its getting so late
i just cant close my eyes
I'm so afraid if I close my eyes I just wont see whats outside
You told me to go to bed hours ago
but momma i just cant sleep"

(Jack Johnson, Just Can't Go To Sleep)


WHAT DO YOU WISH?

And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

(Evanescence, My Immortal)

WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU IN THE PAST?

Our guilt,our blame ,
I've been far too sympathetic.
Our blood, our fault.
I've been far too sympathetic.
I am not innocent.
You are not innocent.
No one is innocent.
I will no longer tolerate you
Even if I must go down beside you.
Because,
No one is innocent.

(Tool, Intolerance)

WHAT DO YOU KNOW?

"The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind."

(Bob Dylan, Blowin' In the Wind)



OK, NOW WRITE ALL THE LYRICS TO THE SONG THAT MOST ACCURATELY DESCRIBES YOU AND YOUR CURRENT STATE OF MIND:

"that i would be good even if i did nothing
that i would be good even if i got the thumbs down
that i would be good if i got and stayed sick
that i would be good even if i gained ten pounds

that i would be fine even if i went bankrupt
that i would be good if i lost my hair and my youth
that i would be great if i was no longer queen
that i would be grand if i was not all knowing

that i would be loved even when i numb myself
that i would be good even when i'm overwhelmed
that i would be loved even when i was fuming
that i would be good even if i was clingy

that i would be good even if i lost sanity
that i would be good whether with or without you"

(Alanis Morrisette, That I Would Be Good)

New Song!

SWEET!

"Amazing" is well on its way to being done. It's a very different style for me- very simple, Just a basic piano, with very simple melody and poetry. I have done so much composing lately it's stupid- and I found myself focusing more on trying new things and developing my skills in terms of musical complexity than actually just letting the song write itself. So this one is super simple, cause that's the way it was when I first played it. And it felt right. Which is a good feeling. The lyrics are on www.poetryandpromises.blogspot.com

Anyway...
Otherwise, as far as updates go, there's so much to say and yet nothing to say at all. When I get like that, I tend to lean towards saying nothing. Contrary to popular belief, I try to avoid controversy. But, like the psycho ex-girlfriend she is, controversy always seems to find me. What can you do? I often ask myself how I find myself in the silly situations that I do. I have a feeling a lot of it is lack of forsight, trusting in things that 'seemed like a good idea at the time', and allowing myself to fall into patterns that I have been fighting for years. At the end of the day, I'm just a silly girl. Can't help it.

SU elections are starting up again. i am pretty excited about the list of candidates. There are some excellent names there and lots of choice for the electorate. I will be taking a very very back seat role- compared to the 4 years prior to this. Maybe I can actually ENJOY Myer for a change!

The strange thing about being sick is how disconnected you feel from reality. I don't get out the way I used to and am finding myself going days or weeks at a time without speaking to some of my closest and dearest friends. It's not personal guys- it's just been a hell of a year so far. But for those of you I haven't seen in a while, you are all in my thoughts. I look forward to copious amounts of caffeine with all of you!

I just discovered that the acronym for my illness is NHL. That makes me pretty happy. Also, as fun as the Olympics are, I am looking forward to having NHL hockey season back. I miss the hockey night in Canada theme. It is the sound of angels to my bored ears.

I just heard the worst "quasi polka-ish, makes me want to poke my eyes out with a rusty hanger" version of Zeppelin's Stairway to Heavy. A little part of me died. Almost as bad as Tom Jones singing Black Betty, but NO WHERE NEAR as amusing.

Today I went to Chuck E Cheese for my friend's daughter's birthday. I discovered that, contrary to popular belief, I DO have an inner child. It was nice to turn my brain off for a few hours and enjoy some hardcore skee-ball action. I also kick ass on the strength machine, though I did categorize myself as a 4 and Under Year Old girl. Oh well, it was worth it. I got a slinky!

Off to Calgary for a few days. Gotta get some best friend lovin'. While I'm at it, I might try resting and re-balancing my internal clock. It can not be normal to go to bed every morning at 8 am. Silly insomnia.

Wow, I must be bored. This is an actual post. Huh. Who would've thought!
Anyway, I'm done now.

Livin', Lovin',
Zita